Seeking Suggestions… Respond Below…

By the way, yesterday marked my third consecutive month of blogging here on Spaces, so I guess I ought to post something truly different today in acknowledgement of the date. Now what the heck could I put up? Any suggestions?

 

I would put up a picture like I see talked about on  FastBikerChic’s site Wish You Were Here. I wish I did have a body like Melissa, she is so pretty… but nah, my body would scare everyone away! I am taking suggestions though.

 

Smiles,

Jo Ann

Miscellaneous

The weather here in Whitesburg, Georgia is beautiful but cold at 40 degrees.

 

I was eating here at my desk as I often do and I got food all over the keyboard, so I hereby issue a warning – If you are going to eat in front of the computer, please cover the keyboard up while you do so, unless you want to spend a lot of time cleaning it up. I had to get the compressed air to clean it out. In the process of doing that I pushed keys trying to clean the keyboard and that caused some real problems. Holding a keyboard upside down with a can of air in one hand is not the easiest thing in the world.

 

On another note I have not managed to move myself to make up the bed or do any chores at all today. I simply do not care to do those things today.

 

For some reason I feel pretty down today, like and I am not able to eat much at all. I think it must be going around because I noted that sort of sentiment on several blogs. I think Signa’s idea of taking a brain vacation would be wonderful. You can find her suggestion at Heretical Ramblings it is listed in Other Blogs I Visit. I would put the link here but it won’t work in OneNote which is where I am composing today. I am having too many MSN crashes to trust anything related to it.

 

You might want to check my other blog I did post some new stuff over there.

 

I think one of the blogs I really like must have shut down today. It is A Place to Belong.

 

I hope you are having a wonderful Friday evening.

 

Always,

Jo Ann

Thinking about this Today…

This is on my mind for some reason today. What happened on September 11, 2001, still haunts me.

 

One September Morning

 

One September morning

The entire world awoke

With no inkling or forewarning

Cherished dreams would die in smoke.

 

Another Tuesday

Like so many others…

No one apprehended that day

Would affect so many mothers.

 

One September morning

Terrorists tried to destroy

Our country without warning,

However, it did not work, their ploy.

 

Another Tuesday

That will live forever;

The bravery and sorrow of the day,

We will not forget, not ever.

 

One September morning

Love reached out calling

Even as we all began mourning,

Our nation was not falling.

 

Another Tuesday

When God was in control

Although throughout that dark day

The catastrophe tried every soul.

 

One September morning

Remembered by history;

A brilliantly promising morning

In a place proud and free.

 

Another Tuesday

When America found unity…

No matter what people might say,

We still have our liberty.

 

One September morning

When the whole world did cry

With new respect aborning

For the noble flag, we yet fly…

 

Jo Ann Joyce Anita Jordan

© September 8, 2002

My Romance…

Going, Going, Going!

 

When I was very young, my romance with reading and writing began. I loved every word I encountered, tasting each one as it rolled off my tongue.

 

One particular word became my favorite, and to this day I love it. Going is the word of choice for me.

 

I remember as a child when mother began to gather purse and keys I would chortle, “Going, going, going!” Every time we left the trailer was an adventure to me. I loved riding the sleek white Buick into our little hometown. The trees and houses we passed on the narrow two-lane road enchanted me. There were people living in each house who were full of life. I imagined what they did, thought, and said, as I sat on the blue vinyl seat with mother beside me.

 

We went to the bank, and that fascinated me because money stayed there. Mom would take money in or get some out, and inevitably I would get a lollipop. Those were good days when tellers gave the luscious suckers out, perhaps to make some good association in a childish mind so when one grew older banking would be more palatable.

 

When we came out of the bank I would shift from foot to foot, “Going, going, going?” Sometimes we went to Grants, the local department store. There were beautiful new objects for me to admire on every shelf. Occasionally Mom bought me a new Pee-Wee doll or Matchbox car while we visited that wonderland.

 

If I was lucky, Mom stopped at the bright clean new McDonald’s to buy some lunch. What a feast the hamburger wrapped in crinkly paper, and the delicious golden fries spilling from their white paper bag with the famous arches printed on it, were.

 

“Going, going, going” is to this day tattooed on my mind with the fondest childhood memories. Now, going, going, going is a way of life for most of us. The simple splendor of a trip to town has lost much of its luster in our hustle, bustle world. We go to work, we go to the store, we go out to eat, so frequently and never seem to stand still long enough to breathe.

 

Hey now, I must let you go… maybe I will see you later… Going, going, going!

 

Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

Copyright July 5, 2000

Quotes From Me

I Say…

 

To grow takes a concentrated effort because change does not come easily but with disruption.

 

What is certain today may prove obsolete tomorrow.

 

Minds and hearts are like the oceans in constant state of motion.

 

I am not yet who I wish to be, but am choosing a path to lead me there.

 

My purpose is unclear to me, but I am convinced God will use me to good purpose.

 

Love is the goal of all life unless perverted beyond all reason.

 

Even a dim candle brings light to a dark space likewise one person may spread love to a lonely world. Go and be a friend to all you may find.

 

Teach tolerance, reap a community of understanding.

 

Art is a window into the soul of all who experience, the artist and observer benefit.

 

Did I not express myself I would remain unknown and unknowing for in expression I become real.

 

Each person is a gift from God to the universe and so is worthy of respect and love.

 

Words are immensely powerful, use them with tender care.

 

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

March 4, 2003

A Story from The Past

This is meant to be a funny story and I mean no slights to anyone. It happened to me years ago and nowadays I take care of such things myself again, but I think it is worth sharing without too much editing.

 

The Evening I Met the Primordial Force

Electricity

 

I am the average woman. I regulate some tasks to the men in my life, but when they do not accomplish what I desire, I endeavor to do it myself. This time I acted because he was not home, and I had to have this done immediately.

 

The bathroom fixture blossomed tulip like with three 100-watt bulbs and two were blown. As I am a creature of light, this wanted correction.

 

I plucked the first bulb out with no difficulty and replaced it. The second came unscrewed from the base leaving the metal in the socket. I turned off the power.

 

Alex, my son, brought a Mag-Lite® and I began working with the pliers. The base only bent, not coming out. I worked with it for what were moments, but seemed hours, to no avail.

 

The light was insufficient to see properly. Alex stood on the green tile by the door. I told him to turn on the lights, and obedient boy he is, he did so.

 

The counter was high and I was kneeling on its damp marbleized surface. My feet were bare and I was wearing blue jean shorts and a tank top with petite floral decoration. When the light blazed on I was stretched upward reaching the pliers to within a few centimeters of the offending fixture.

 

I should have known better, for my brother came near electrocution years ago in a machine shop. Improper ground is dangerous.

 

The current arced from the fixture to my implement and entered my body with a sizzle. I screamed as I instinctively jumped backward. The sparks and the shock terrified me.

 

Alex asked with a trembling waver, “Mom, are you alright?”

 

I looked at the blackened end of the pliers and then to the pale face of my sweet child, “Yes, I think so. That was an electrifying experience.”

 

Alex grinned, “Yeah Mom, scared me good. I thought you were going to fly for a second. Did you see the sparks?”

 

“Ah huh, and heard the sizzle pop too. I could have been dead. It hurt,” I replied.

 

“Let’s tell God thanks,” I said quietly and we prayed together.

 

After we fell silent, Alex told me, “Mom, I think that should be the last time you change a light bulb. I am telling Dad what happened when he gets home.”

 

I sighed, “Do you have to do that?”

 

“If you will tell him, I won’t say anything,” he bargained.

 

Therefore, I told my husband when he came home from work. He changed light bulbs from that day forward.

 

We all find this amusing now. It is one of the tales of my surprising ability to make accidents happen.

 

I met the primordial force: Electricity. I respect power now, and act in such ways that I do not provoke it.

 

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

April 13, 2000

A Little Tidbit…

~Inspirational Writing~
 
I consider Inspirational Writing that word or phrase that grabs the heart, and touches the soul. This sort of writing moves us to be the best of who we really are. It gives us wings to soar above the disasters of everyday living. It contributes to the cosmos that surrounds us. Inspirational writing illuminates the darkness bringing hope and joy.

To be inspired nourishes a connection to creative energy. People generally accomplish more when living creatively. Inspiration brings clarity, and clarity defines us. When each of us creates, we touch the depths of being, and we are whom we choose to be.

Belief begets thought, thought begets word, word begets deed; and things materialize in our worlds. Nothing is without worth.

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

Just a Hello…

I did much better this morning. I went to bed at 2:15AM and got up at 7:00AM. I carried Alex to the bus. That was an experience because the windshield was iced over this morning and I could not get it to clear enough to see out. I had to ride with the window open and it was cold.

 

I have been messing around with the other blog some this morning. Just getting the template set up and such. I like it a little better now. MSN is still much superior. However I will be keeping this other site just for a side thing.

 

Mom has gone out with her friend, June, so I will have the house to myself for a while. I think I will turn the music up loud and enjoy that experience. I have been running the computer with Media Player switched on for several days now, but the volume is quite low. I seem to sleep better with the music on.

 

I had Girl Scout Cookies for breakfast again. Becoming a habit, but it will not be long before they are all gone. I have been sharing them with Alex. Mom brought me some gum which I will chew until my jaw starts hurting. That does not take long.

 

I did not make it all the way around to all my favorite blogs last night so I will have to try again. If I miss you please understand that I will get to you soon. There are quite a few on my list now.

 

I may add a few more links today. I continue to find new places to visit. There are so many people with interesting lives.

 

I hope you have a wonderful afternoon!

 

TTYL,

Jo Ann

My Mistake…

I did not get to the paperwork I am resisting it intensely. I still have to make up my mind what I really want to do about it.

 

I am not hungry tonight. Fixed supper a couple of hours ago and still have some of it lying in front of me. I weighed today and found that I have lost three more pounds. I wish it came off faster.

 

I accidentally created a new blog this evening:

 

I don’t like it so much but may use it a little now and then. It is on blogspot. I think Spaces is much cooler. I really did not mean to create another blog, stupid of me really. Now I have to learn new software. Like I don’t have enough to do already.

 

Alex’s monitor died tonight. It has been failing for a while, but now it is gone. Four years is a pretty good life for a CRT. Now I have to find a way to get him a new monitor.

 

TTYL,

Jo Ann

This Day… And Poems and Prose

I was a very bad person today. I went to bed at 2:30AM and got up just long enough to cut the alarm off at 7:00AM. I did not take Alex to the bus and only got up when Mom called me at 11:00AM. Oh well, once in a while you have to be a jerk. On the upside I feel so rested. Good sleep.

 

If anyone has a suggestion for an alternate browser I should download to run as back up I would appreciate the information. My operating system is XP Professional actually it is XP Media Center 2005, but has all the functionality of Professional plus some nifty extras.

 

I posted some more links yesterday and this morning. By the way if any of you use MSN groups they changed the address again and don’t have a redirect set up yet. Sometimes MSN can be so aggravating. This morning I could not get to my group without all kinds of work. I think I will go complain somewhere… Torres sounds like a good candidate. I already have his link. See Other Blogs I Visit.

 

Mom is busy painting today. I had to help her with some angel eyes. Eyes can be difficult. She says she thinks knowing how to apply make-up makes me better at it. Mom does not wear make-up and ladies she has the most beautiful skin I have ever seen on a 75 year old. Guess that is why I go without paint most of the time. Her other secret is Olay beauty products. She has been using that stuff ever since I can remember.

 

I have some things I must do today, I have been procrastinating about some paperwork that is essential. I really do not want to transfer ownership of my life insurance to someone else, but if I keep it I lose some of my benefits this year and I can not afford to have that happen. Either transfer ownership or give the equity in the policy to the state for a death benefit and I hate that option too, because the equity continues to grow and I know they won’t use it all to bury me. Sucks having to depend on the government for anything. I would gladly tie it up so I could not touch the equity unless I was off disability, but that will not please the powers that be.

 

I wish someone would call me for an interview on some of the applications I have out there. I would really like some extra money. The thing is that no one wants someone with Schizophrenia (Schizo-Affective Disorder) working for them and that I have not been employed since 1995 when I was running my own magazine. I really believe that discrimination has to do with my not getting a job, because I am qualified for those positions I apply for, disability sucks.

 

I have some other poems for you, as often they are old ones, but hey maybe soon I will write some new ones. If you see my muse kindly send him home, I need him desperately. He has been MIA so long I have forgotten what he sounds like. Anyway, here are the poems:

 

Can You?

 

Can you take a moment

Out of all the haste

To put your thoughts

Forever on the page?

 

No one knows you

Without expression

That you aptly place

Your words, no waste.

 

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

January 22, 2003

 

 

Honor America

 

Celebrate freedom beautiful angel

Soothe and bless us with your voice

Defend the bountiful equal opportunity

Of independence, hope, and true peace

Urge us to live in happiness together;

Bring paradise to us in a sweet dream.

 

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

October 3, 2003

 

Cut Flower

 

My heart is like a flower

Carelessly cut down and left

Lying on the ground alone.

The noon sun shines down bright

Withering my tenderness

No crystal vase holds me

In prideful place to be seen,

Admired by loving eyes.

My heart is abandoned by

Even he who promised to

Hold me forevermore dear,

A flower cut down to die

 

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

July 28, 2000

 

Well you probably are ready to move on after that here is a piece that reflects on a place I have been able to move away from, finally. I am doing so much better now. It encapsulates my broken heartedness at the time:

 

I remember…

 

I remember when you once only yearned to hold me everyday. We were like one piece of the same thing. There was no separating us from one another because our love was deep, real, and reliable. Now you seem changed. Though I still feel so much for you, it seems you have found a different interest.

 

I remember once I was sure that I could accomplish anything upon which I set my heart. Those days are however long gone. I know that what I want will not come easily should it come at all. I still hope and pray, but my faith is weaker than a week ago.

 

I remember what? Nothing seems important enough to write. Yes, I remember, but of what use is my memory. Does anyone care? Not likely, that anyone beyond me wants the information and sometimes I do not even want to know myself.

 

I remember days I tried to make some difference in our world, but I accomplished little enough only to make me feel ashamed. Why not do something tangible that could be pointed at in the future and attributed to my prowess? Nothing stands out; nothing makes a change.

 

I remember but it does not matter. I am not worth the trouble of trying to make it right. I am just a stranger walking through the darkness of life’s night.

 

 

© Jo Ann J. A. Jordan

Saturday, September 04, 2004

 

Okay, I will let you go for a while… gotta get that paperwork done though I dread it. Hope you have a marvelous day.

 

Smiles,

Jo Ann