Went to sleep around 1:00AM and woke on my own at 8:00AM. Decided to stay up and get an early start on my Saturday. This sleeping thing is working so much better than it did for the previous three years that I am very pleased.
When I got up I found the house deserted except for Penny. Unfortunately the pesky thought that always occurs to me since my first breakdown came up again. I thought just for the briefest of moments that everyone had gone to heaven in the rapture and I had been left behind. This I told myself was crazy and went on about the business of getting the clothes together to wash the first of three loads for today. I have to deal with some small annoying crazy thoughts on a regular basis, but have learned to ignore most of it. I think my deep biblical background sometimes has a real negative effect on me. When I am unsure of myself which happens quite a lot, I often worry that I am going to hell. This can be a very disturbing thought and scare the life of me. I am bright enough to understand that these irrational thoughts are just that, but they are still an inconvenience. I function pretty much normally most of the time, and most people never realize I have Schizophrenia (Schizo-Affective Disorder), but it is a real personal challenge to stay "sane". The paranoia that goes along with all the rest can be very debilitating too, if I allow my mind to go down that path… most times I just tell my brain to shut up and go on with whatever it is I need to accomplish.
Soon I heard Mom and Alex bustling around outside. They have gotten an early start on the yard work. I am glad they decided to allow me to sleep. I will work inside while they do outdoor things. I really wish Mom would not try to do so much, but she is stubborn.
Well, I have to go unload the washer and put on another load of clothes.
TTYL,
Jo Ann
Chronicles 
I have a questionnnnn.
Have you ever had the thought that God isn\’t real…but you knew He was but the stupid thoughts kept bothering you to make you think you didn\’t believe He was real?
…if that makes any sense…