In deference to all the cat owners who blog, I got a feline totem to sit on my desk today. I can not have the real thing, but the small token pictured below will happily watch over me as I sit here typing. Maybe it will prove inspirational when I am at a loss of words.
I am not ready to retire yet. I think I was out of my room too much today. I miss being here when I am gone and although the outside world is fine, I find more intellectual stimulation here at my computer. Guess that makes me less than sociable, but I have always been comfortable in the company of myself.
I bought some blank cards today, the thing is I rarely write letters anymore, just no one to write to. I love to write letters, but I have found that few people reciprocate these days. It gets a little old to write letters and get no response. Eventually one begins to feel the missives sent are an imposition to the recipient, and that does not feel pleasant.
I also bought blank books. These are beautiful things, but I find I rarely write in these because they are so nice I cannot put my drivel in them. The question that begs asking is then why must I buy these items? I truly wish I understood the compulsion. I do not understand why I collect these things.
It is not like I should spend money frivolously as I have precious little on which to survive two people. I wonder how to eliminate the compulsion to acquire things. This is a deep seated problem for me and causes me a lot of stress.
Mmm… I have been listening to music from Media Player while computing. Random songs are playing from my library and it is such a good mix. I wish I had had this ability years ago. Right now "Bad to the Bone" is playing and it sounds so appropriate to me. I really should play music more often, but for some reason I don’t.
I guess I should turn in now. I am still not sleepy, but 7:00AM comes early.
Always,
Jo Ann
Chronicles 
Hello! I discovered your blog by way of Bill\’s "Crackers in Bed" and enjoyed it very much. I had a MSN blog for a really brief time, but decided I didn\’t want to deal with the maintance of blogging. Anyway, your entries are refreshingly honest. I can relate to how while you enjoy being out and about yet relishing solitude from time to time. Time is a precious commodity and it is something the need to acquire materialism can not replace nor money can buy. I\’ll bookmark your site and visit. Thanks!
Can I add one more comment? 🙂 Do you feel the reason you buy blank books other than for their beauty is because a book with blank pages is like a fresh slate to start your life from?
Crackers is great. I am glad you found your way here. Blogging is a pretty demanding thing. I find I am always thinking about what I am going to post, weighing things for whether I should write about them or not. Thanks for the compliments and do come back. I do enjoy being out a lot, but I also want to be here. There is serenity here in my room and I can interact without actually having physical contact which is a little easier for me.I do not know if that could be the idea behind the blank books, because mostly they just sit here in my room. I never write in them, but having them makes me feel that I can always start something new and exciting. I need to quit buying them but they seem irrestible.Always,Jo Ann
Jo Ann -I do the same thing with clean books I see at Border\’s everytime I\’m there. I\’ve even bought a couple. My hang up is I think what I write wouldn\’t be good enough to darken the pages with. Where I get that I\’ll never know. :)Stephen
Stephen,That is exactly what I do and I do not know why I do it. I tend to be perfectionistic and if the handwriting was not perfect and the entry earth shatteringly important I would think I had ruined the whole book. It is crazy, but then again I have papers 😉 so that is okay. I think we should all send our inner critics somewhere remote and leave them stranded for eternity. I think a lot of creative people have such problems and that is a major contributing factor to creative block. I am shocked that I can even produce a blog on a daily basis… lots of times I have to say it is okay no matter what I write, that I am just trying to do this daily. It is a commitment I made to myself. If it turns out worthwhile great, if not well at least I kept my promise to myself.Smiles, Jo Ann
I don\’t buy blank journals, but I do tend to treat each day as an empty page. Life is just a whole series of one "right now" after another. This generally gives me enough material to keep filling the pages of my "book."
Hi Jo Ann,I feel the same way when it comes to money. If I win the lottery I will send some your way. I would love a real pen pal if you are serious. If your interested you can send your address to nitanis@yahoo.com Think about it, no pressure. Have a good day. 🙂
Mike, thanks for stopping by. I tend to treat each day as something completely new too. I think of them as an original creation that I work a little more on each moment. The blank books are just something I collect.Thanks Leigh Ann, money is something I could always use more of. I am shooting you an email with my address in it.It would be cool to have a real pen pal. Smiles,Jo Ann