I want to let all of you know that I am home. I got here on late Friday afternoon. I would have been on my own blog to let you know earlier, but I have run into some small glitches resuming my life here at home. Please understand that I will get more information to each of you who cares so much as I can. I am not back to full strength even now, but I am much better. I expect to be back fully to myself by Monday, if I just take it easy. Your thoughts and prayers have meant a lot to me and I am so glad to have such wonderful friends.

 

Love to all,

Jo Ann

This is Alex Mountz, the son. I am writing this entry to thank you all for your help and attention in these matters. A sheriff was contacted by one of you- THANK YOU. It was comforting to know that all of you were involved in this. My grandmother and I are going to take Jo Ann to the hospital to make sure she is taken care of. I have had to deal with these sort of situations before and I am very capable of taking care of them. Rest assured that I will make sure that she is taken care of, or if I can not, I will find someone who ca.

PS- All 16 year olds aren’t bad. I’m one.

NOW I have dreamed of all three with once doing maybe More times with most my life in all my last husbands are ex’s you probably doing just exactly some point some them in a day and six moths for the last in my best I have good memory I did sleep with right even because he would just because about three of it did just when none of who I would really know included which because on this is true guess my own blog which one is sure completely mean now. You would know which one if and if you read there before it hal come to be sure one if not sure without one name I DID IF EVEN he one any to you did even read even if he did both of another and he just a few of my you my could or would try to be the very first none one of the two if no doubt two I would bet I try sue him most only becuse both he and is only other my if mine could only too recent to be the one sure if I really could one person anytime I still go to even talk to him in that it even tell about the most that is Alex is. And I do because never quite the other did that I am therefore again stunned you did because you yourself have done that than if you quite it would told his own girlfriend you told her just a while longer than his own in damn life is once because in that he never quite conclusion in ALL and his many years until in his is year which was not the more was maybe at best to his last in time in his own fucking best thought in since the last time in round 1987 which is last even when I would own Richard would know I may have a guess or more recently last and Jeff most recently know when would or asked in since in telling him since Alex was long before both them knew when how in since the very same in when I DID KNOW BECAUSE ONLY BECAUSE YOU ARE NEARLY IF I CANNOT REMEMBER IT IS RIGHT BECASE I CAN AND WILL MORE RECENTLY TOLD YOU TODAY AND OF THEM IS A COMPLETE IS MCP AND YOU YOURSELF OR RH IS HAVE A CLUE OF THAT IS MUCH TO YOU CLEAR TO ME IT QUITE REALLY CLEAR TO ME THAN ON YEAR BECAUSE I Have told them that year of I had Alex had not you do know is 1988. Which is coming if close to when I have thought of I know most of not ever if I nor 17 years are I have a complete idea I had ever tried to tell you are yet read it which I had thinking I you who is a complete whore than I am aware than a very tolerant with you is you than is you who just becase I’M when if you know if any one person I am anyone like you I most certain you or is to me I most you are about A complete I have YOU of me most I’m recent SAINTjust before you did it here in this you most I’m in that one is today and if I am if any is this is true which you or any one person is you know. I am quite amazed at you again.

See what I mean if you know, smiles if anyone had,
Jo Ann

Thanks to what FastBikerChic and Miss Cookie Pussy which are some of my best friends if for profanity, length purposes, or my deplorable grammar, lack of what I am my foolish even a little rigorous lack of control at spelling, or my rather lack of editorial control which for my own purposes as of grasp of reality slipping into some rather grave errors am now. What I call anything over my hostile behavior on your part saw in either a good lack of control you see any way in my slipping into a really bad or even very good sort of way you from me have the good sense to know is used at only Alex and I which real world situations you see in my own or his way may know any of that was bordering even there on either my worse usage in extreme instances about the way I talked in cyberspace yesterday in such ways you may really want to a point I some what in Jock’s or any other case as anyone you saw me finally to me I explain a need to do just feel free to delete it or keep any way you feel necessary. I would never care one way bad and might even feel a case like you can with my extreme pleasure expect me to come to you some way as in an apology ask you the next day as far a I am concerned delete it either as I have made up my mind is way out of line to my friends.

 

Or who you may feel concerned in my own way sorry as is you are going to no doubt Pariah as may so feel was unfair in some parts yesterday I might even get the guts in my own way as I have only limited control over as I now only the vaguest sense is my almost enemy which I consider is not anyone I have my beginning suspicions they can in real life which I can forgive quite I would the next day it I would never want to hug as much as I am able even as my own ex-sister-in-law as when I did do. So as her by her own feelings is really sorry in her own how my, by my only hostile again real actions which you will doubt I will ever understand are ever needed by me in the extreme by personally making me feel she somehow attacked me in physical violence pushed me into even little a bit of pain; as she has ever done when I in turn defended me and my son against her own words about her own defense of my own limited regard which I have always either held her in only my own close to the best a person can so as a pretty much friend you can no longer think I do with regard to Pariah.

 

Or my father which now is able to very well be understood now to have my best regards. Even as the one person and any type who I can any way love enough to be sorry I have no understanding in his sexual use of me as you can imagine I do him for living long enough to never lived as long as it hurt me even a little too long with him with the person I mention who ever doubts my sincerity and respect and his ability to forgive him need be the other. Who so I can hug my own self is anyone who actually holds the person I think I mentioned that I have so little recollection in my own mind that anyone would expect I hold very well is a person who I have done little I can recall even begin I could if he himself in my presence himself said quite the same degree responsible is one who maybe once, maybe twice, I really do not even earn my enmity in real life as I can as far may actually concern hold him accountable without also actually believed to his own mind at a time. Maybe, at this one because if he linked to my site his own sorrow because that upset me enough to let him know is like Pariah. Any of you know even likely not to in some future to report even him to some authority is by doing some way to me, Alex, or my own mother, and that too pretty bad really if this person to us did it and I saw it like trying to kill me or threatening us like I have seen him say it himself is the one in such extreme words to you all, including Jock, should really doubt I never would have dreamed at even imagining said it in my place. Is one person who I said there in his own humanity would doubt means he even chance has one of going so far, as I will soon go to know as any person ever will like he just vaguely even might have does not expect very well probably is, if I really have any idea in defense of because he has done so in case of my own Daddy as I am or Alex’s case Granddaddy, is his opinion about animals as in once or twice even done in words or by his exact actions like beating pretty well for my own – me. You may be clear on exactly how ashamed in that case I would be of my own damn sick little way if not sure both of this I hold both insofar as my own attitude is either I a very little may and may even if you ask me how little one or two both those feel in reality.

 

If, I understand how I am to how I really am at both Richard who is you Alex’s own biological Dad who I would have. Also as has no little less than Jeff who by MY own estimation in now I still both just feeling too lucky to have just now earned my own very good reasons to have loving me after all those two just not at all now, and they are not too far in my guess. Would they ever, even try to contact me in some way again to doubt myself as that goes. I guess you know how upset yesterday I would be really you are when I realized by my little ability myself in reality.

 

I will try not ever even my own disbelief to any one person I am so little concerned about in my own life to their own extent as I would be like a little confused about in these own minds as you were likely in the exactly same intentions with this or you in your mind had some conception as none have none of these would worry about me in my own unlimited which I think is a for Mr. Pariah or the other one exactly if one other one would if I tried to you as I do hold these not enough to call Mr. likely as we do in Miss Cookie Pussy more in a way than I mean that as a nickname should he or she have sometime future to mean I was a little my own worst personal mean way if I could explain I did too you all each of them said as to both of them I meant I am personally all my own best friend which I call Alex, and he is my own good judge would be ashamed of me if he exactly what as himself is of me at you can is now. Now you have well, I think even the who know what I meant to their own satisfaction. And damn well be enough for anyone who I think even a little confused by me who does not in some who do understand this much I could believe Jock or any other is now quite a lot what I am puzzled really happened at once now is it.

 

So thing is so little you have to mean to me in future times worry. Go figure, why it all became necessary to me to say everything I said to you today because Miss Cookie Pussy just calls me in case I am in fact, somewhat a little better at being any more well than she was getting me to now even understand me better is me than even as she is I do know exactly like am I in similar and would not be really surprised if she starts saying some stupid name like she would that if she were really start you or anyone a Marine or Army private would call me that would easily taken by surprised in their own vernacular mean; by exactly how much she would be by me yesterday as anyone would if she even stated I was what you may if you get what I mean Miss Hell On Wheels. After anyone gets a good idea what my latest new nickname is going if she were to think that way in case she ever gets such a good idea, because she has now reached a point only very few were at to be so accurate a point to be even in my own Daddy’s nearly best name; and he was himself sometime mistaken quite by if I mention a very well deserved name in terms I would call a very well known name general if I could quite likely because the one I am is called Patton when even I know that looked once would if he said he looked like him very little this person in his explaining it to this person and I can know now precisely what anyone with good military background would look at his exact in mind and I have no doubt you cannot be mistaken who by the name, but I cannot think of the right name now. I will only say he once or more times gave a mistaken idea just how serious an idea it with this had when he used to once in while did drive such a vehicle one or two times. Because it happens to be what he drove before it was given to this person who I am so hard trying to say if I mention he had to laugh. When I used too now reach it with him without any help knew how angry at a store clerk or so insignificant a person does indeed need how angry I am in private he would. YOU best be aware anytime she calls me who I am talking about when I or she employ that term. It is me, and that even now is better than I can now say who I meant today, just now and you, also my good blessing to use when and I let you again know when she did in fact call me on my home phone today, just to check in with me. You can not even be as appraises when she and some other I like know how I am doing instead any situation as she knows this in than she would know me as usually at least and some of you do in myself at HopefulJo.

 

Lots of people find they do love it and it has always been in most cases my nickname online, once it maybe twice been taken which, if you do know probably pisses one person she considers in porn even looks inappropriate to her at almost with, you and me know will a little ticked her off. Simply because her pictures did. Now I think it will all you ever be in need of me ever saying it ever, when I never intended you to have to bear with me, as I am not any good at saying this type thing again in any better words am. Zen to be exact meant it as have tried to explain in these words one sentence and I find his words in almost anything most concise.

 

Now, I have got to go back and edit it only for paragraphs as it is one in all this if even I can find a way to make it more without my limited understanding if I do, believe Zen regards me that way.

 

Smiles again to eveyone,

Jo Ann aka Miss Hell On Wheels, once again if you all care!

I am going to bed soon, but I will try this short entry now and expect a longer one tomorrow. If you are still coming leave a message if you like soon as I will pass any new information about business along here only if someone wants to hear it. I do not think it is appropriate here as in this case no one has even asked me if they might be interested in anything to buy from me.

 

I only checked in to let you know I should be posting more soon and I was very busy. I am really giving the business a lot of my time so it requires less of me soon. I will be busy tomorrow. I will try to get back in this way tomorrow at least. I am getting the feeling no one is interested in what I am doing now. I am considering closing my blog as I see the interest waning. I am unsure anyone wants to read me anymore.

 

I have to go to bed.

 

Smiles,

Jo Ann

First I would like to say thank you for all your patience in the last few days. I am sorry I have not been able to be around to all the sites on my lists nor do much on this blog for a while. If you have ever tried to get loose ends together to start a new business or had a problem with a new vehicle immediately after purchase you probably have some idea of how hectic the last week has been.

 

Since I have started posting again a little on the blog for business and now for my own pleasure, I should be able to begin to have a little time free for myself again. I am currently starting back with 40 Days and 40 Nights entries and maybe posting a few poems as soon as I can get some of the older on transferred from paper. Right now I still have some things like paperwork with the government to straighten out before I can slow down too much during the week. I have a lot of driving to do associated with all that which must be done before the end of the month. I also have to clear up some overextension with a few institutions I do financial transactions with currently.

 

If you see anything you might be interested in buying from me and could possibly do it this weekend it would be a great help to me. I can do no more for the business until I turn around some products.

 

I am able to sell through PayPal on eBay and anyway Amazon can sell and item. I need the sales to come through eBay right now because there is no hold on that account for until Monday at this particular outlet like there is at Amazon. I would love to sell a few copies of OneNote 2003 this weekend. I can highly recommend that program because I have one already installed on my computer and enjoy blogging with it a lot so far.

 

As far as my mother is concerned I am not in the best of positions because I made the mistake of asking her for a few dollars to help me cover gas on a day my funds were very limited and she became very upset. I really was not expecting her to react with such volatile anger about such a thing, but she felt I was trying to be extremely hateful. She says she will never ride in my Jeep again and that is a real shame because I enjoy driving in it much more than her Ranger. I did not mean any harm. I only wanted a few dollars to help me fill the tank one time. I was never expecting the woman to pay me all the time. She knows I am struggling with money issues right now. I would never have gotten so upset with her if she were in the situation I am right now. She is not accepting my apology, nor accepting that I have said that I am very sorry she was hurt at all. She says if I was really sorry I would never have asked the question and cannot understand that I very honestly meant no harm.

 

As you may or may not already know, my Mom did lend me the money invested in this computer and several other bigger purchases I have made. I have now made her so angry she really would like to tell me that I may never use this machine again unless I pay her all the money back. In fact, I had to plead with her pretty much constantly for about three hours not to do that to me since all the business depends on internet connection for me. I really need to generate as much cash as I can this weekend so I can give her more money right away. I have already given her $100.00 toward that debt with her this month, however, I really need to give her no less than that amount as soon as the banks open on Monday again if possible, so she does not feel I am so at her mercy about computer use. That is also another reason I did not want to spend too much time on here with the computer until she began to whine a little less at me. I hope all of my regular visitors may understand why I am currently trying to appease what I consider my worse tyrant right now. If I do not give her enough money soon she shall threaten me again with taking my computer use away from me. I really rather that not happen. I do not like any power struggle with her when she is being what I consider a bitch.

 

This is one other reason I am coming before each of you basically begging you if you possibly feel you may be able to buy something from me this weekend. I am willing to sell most things at a very small profit maybe none at all including shipping this weekend. If you do see fit to help me I will be forever in your debt. I do have some personal artwork I already have on line that I am willing to sell if needed only over this weekend right now. For instance I can sell anything that I can make a print of that is currently on the website here with my signature and a number affixed to the reverse side so it is considered a real print and not just a copy. You all may also ask me about giving you those I still have originals in the frames of those for a little over what I am willing to sell the copies for, only because I really need funds right now. I will be putting more things on the blog for sale as I can and most are brand new items. If you are at all interested please check back as you may. I do have some other things I intend to put up today so some of what I already posted may disappear into archives. Just leave me a note with the picture of any product if you are interested in it or simply have a question about my price.

 

I am trying to post here before I ever post anywhere else, because I would rather my friends have what I am selling this weekend. I must warn you that I may take a little extra time to get an item actually on eBay.com or Amazon.com because I have not started making many ads there so far and am also somewhat unskilled with the interface right now.

 

If I can I will get back again soon and post some poetry, but for right now I think I shall just go back to what I need to get done next. I will leave you a quick entry I was able to update a little.

 

I also want to say thanks to everyone who has recently stopped by and left me a comment I should get back to answering each one very soon, but I may not be able to catch up on all the ones currently showing right away. Thanks for being so understanding.

 

Checking In: Days 1 – 10

 

Journal Prompts and My Responses

 

Reflect on and review days 1 – 10. Make a list of three things you have learned about yourself:

 

• I have learned that I have some very vivid sensual memories
• I am able to concentrate on specific things and write about them in detail
• I have some things I need to work on

 

Make a list of three questions you wonder about:

 

• Can I really write a novel?
• Is self-esteem possible for me?
• Will I make it through the whole 40 days?

 

How has this piece of time inspired or informed your intention?

 

• I feel more creative because I am doing some work daily.
• I still feel I lack some motivation.
• My self-criticism seems a little better.
• My imagination is beginning to be more active.
• Success is still something to reach.
• I am writing daily and am thinking about some art ideas.

 

I promise to try to be here more often, but I am saying I may still be very busy right now. For instance at the moment Alex is trying to edit my rather bizarre document that was too wordy when you last saw it. His is much better even now than mine would ever become. This is mostly because he is a better writer than I will ever be when it comes to anything that might be other than a poem. I am a pretty efficient poet, but not even there do I outshine Alex. Hopefully you will soon see some of what I am attempting to tell you about his creative genius.

 

I must go for now. Hope each of you has a very good weekend. I am having a good day so far, if something just sells I would be much relieved.

 

Hugs and Smiles,

Jo Ann